Artsy :)

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Kak As actually sprung this idea out of my mind. Call it narcissism, I value my thoughts dearly. Perhaps it was the fact that I could actually pull a few surprises even to myself with what I had to say sometimes (or perhaps that depression actually brings out the best in me ?). Therefore my thoughts, my rhymes and simple poetries I wrote along the way - on top of someone's table, tissues - whatever - I try my best to hold on to them.

Then come my sketches, I value them in equal measures as well, albeit they were a bit more less unfortunate for I don't really have the means to hold to them and perhaps a little undervalued because they're well - Sketches.

So thanks Kak As for this (and for that matter, Pinterest) for the means to hold on to my sketches. And don't get your panties up in a wad yet, these art pieces are worth more than Mona Lisa herself - in Parallel Universe somewhere, of course.

They're not pretty but like the little pieces of my thoughts, I would like to hold on to them not for them and neither for you but for the me of tomorrows. All I'm saying is if you like them - by all means come out and puji the hell out of me. Kalau tak, we can both act like we didn't see anything! :P

Baju Melayu

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The moment I finished shopping dekat Jalan Masjid India, I was determined I would definitely up this entry. So before I forgot..

I was befuddled at the price I was looking at for Baju Melayu in the vicinity of Wisma Yakin. I thought they were gonna be cheaper or at least at par with what Puchong had to offer (in the region of 100 bucks/ pair) - albeit with abundance of choice.

Buoyyyyyyyy was I clueless. Wisma Yakin is definitely a cut-throat place to go to buy your Baju Melayu needs, especially on the Eve of Aidilfitri. I half suspected they bloated the prices during this time. It only make sense, the demand was up by at least a thousand-fold, and nobody's gonna buy Baju Melayu or Baju Kurung every month. So why not squeeze out the entire year's fortune now. Well, that's a theory I should prove later.

The purpose of this entry is that so I won't forget how much expenditure was involved in getting Baju Raya every year. So that I'll have some benchmark of how much should I pay for the upcoming years. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't mind paying a little higher than usual for quality but then again, I hate paying over the odds.

And to the sighing relief of mine, mine's quality as far as comfort goes. Its just the colours that I pick though. I have this slight weakness for dark colours. I picked it out regardless of realizing that how much purple there is on the canvas. I thought what the fuck, the year before was pure purple. This one ada pin-stripes. So what the heck la kan. And balik, I realized that Hafiz and Ayah had 2 identical colours, both of which I totally forgot to put into equation when making that smart-ass decision. But then again, what the heck, aku rasa lawa.

One issue tho (well, aside from the striking similarity of course) - the samping / sampen (somebody please shed me some light about this please) - The samping, I have vowed on my mother's cat's grave that I wouldn't go for that kind of material which I have given up upon a couple years back - due to the impossibility of ironing it. And the price, my sweet God - RM 145. Gila. But the colours, the colours just match my Baju Melayu. And again, I rammed down all vows, promises and silent revenge vouches I've made with myself through the loneliness of the nights years before.

All in all, I was surprised at myself for I have never been one to spend so much on Baju Melayu. To think that a few years before I personally requested Mak to only give me the top half of the Baju Melayu, for I know that the seluar is gonna be wasted. I won't wear it again after the first day of Raya. I know it.

What a difference a few years had made. But then again spending close to 300 bucks for Baju Melayu had never been me and I don't think it probably should. Perhaps, perhaps if I hadn't be so desperate since that was the last weekend before Raya (the disadvantage of having Raya on weekends!) and if not for keluar dengan Zul dengan Hadi at 4.30 pm on a Saturday evening (and Zul has been bugging to get back for bukak puasa dekat rumah. !@#$%^&*) - I maybe wouldn't have spent that much money.

But then again, the colours and the price aside - the quality is justified. Perhaps I might just come back again next year :P

Fantasy Fantasized II

Rajah 1

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OK. Two Fantasy Football entries in a matter of days. Well I'm not officially obsessed, I was already obsessed ever since I can't remember;

(bullshit, you started playing Fantasy Football last season. Well OK fine - last season)

Ehem, pardon the little conversation between me and the little boy inside me a la Van Persie (yes! *fist pump*)

- Yes ever since last season.

Its just that I think it would help to keep track and rationalize why I did what I did and who I had to sacrifice in order for me to bring in other players, those whom I thought would definitely score some high points for me. And the spirits of time blows pretty strongly in one Eden Hazard's way. To miss the boat now would definitely spell a disaster and a lot of temple-hitting incidents comes May.

For instance, like last season, I knew RvP was gonna injure himself at some point into the season. Or rather, I was hoping that he would. I stubbornly held on to my players and and refused to accept the fact the hated Arsenal's forward was scoring points in abundance for Fantasy Managers.

My decision was based entirely on emotion and foolish hopes. And it cost me dearly. While other managers were enjoying RvP's captain points (double whatever the appointed captain for the Gameweek scores) I was left to pick up drizzles here and there due to the constant changes, for I am one "impulsive doer" and to a further extend, an impulsive decision maker. Funny, I constantly tweaked my team here and there and only refused to incorporate RvP. Simply out of my hatred for Arsenal.

That was up until a dude whom I deem (I wish I could've put this in a less awful manner) whom I deem intellectually less fortunate, told me "Hang tukaq ja RvP yada yada yada something something". Then it hits me, I was talking about this for a long long time; that the problem with intelligent guys is that they don't listen to things from a person whom they feel.. isn't smarter than them.

Then it hits me again, that Fantasy Football is a lot like stockbroking in a way that there are times you hold on to your stocks but doubt not, there will come a time that you will have to let go of some no matter how much it violates your intellectual beliefs.

Now a look into the last Gameweek, I didn't have to sacrifice anybody last week since Chelski didn't have any game in this Gameweek, its only logical that I bring in Ben Arfa as a replacement for Lampard. Shawcross for Rafael was an easy choice for that extra edge he brings to United's offense. So that's 4 points deducted.

I know Dong Ji Wu wouldn't be playing for Sunderland and I have had 4 points deducted already due to Ben Arfa's transfer - thus the question of should Ji be substitued since I have that extra dollars from Lampard's sale. The easy route would've been just to leave Ji in the team for even if he didn't play, I wouldn't lose 4 unnecessary points.

It wasn't up until the last minutes that I decided to use that "Baik Menyesal Beli Dari Menyesal Tak Beli" principle that I have always employed when faced against to-buy-or-to-bye predicament. Thus, the purchase of Steven Fletcher of Sunderland. I've admired the dude for his poaching tendency ever since his Wolves' days. But this was to be his first game for Sunderland and I know how much time some players take to settle within the team no matter how talented they are.

His was a risky buy due to the 8 points deduction. If I were to stick with Ji, yes, I wouldn't gain any points but I sure as hell would retain 4, but if I go for Fletcher, at the MOST logical he would conjure up 2 points and I would lose unnecessary 2 due to his transfer. Therefore in order for Fletcher's transfer to make sense he would've have to score at least a goal. And he gave me two! :)

Breakdown of points for my new transfer goes a little something like this;

1. Lampard > Ben Arfa - Cost: 0 | Return: 9 (+9)

2. Shawcross > Rafael - Cost: 4 | Return: 1 (-3)

3. Dong Ji Wu > Fletcher - Cost: 4 | Return: 13 (+13)

Total - Cost: 8 | Profit: 19 (+11)

Not bad.

OK that is some long ass entry.

We are finally arriving to the actual point of this (un)necessarily prolonged entry, for Gameweek 4, in order for me incorporate Hazard, I have to sacrifice a player of his caliber or or two players; one of entry and another, intermediate class players.

The initial plan looked like this, but since RvP's hatrick heroic last night I think to drop him now would be stupid as I have already bought him up and considering how he will be heavily utilized by United in the upcoming fixtures now that Rooney the Shrek has got himself injured. And to buy him back would mean MAJOR tweaking to the team as he's the single player to cost the managers around 13 mil ++ and will potentially be blown more out of proportion as the season winds down.

That would mean the logical choice is to sacrifice Kagawa and another fringe player. Kagawa, to my dismay, hasn't performed up to the standard I expected of him, but to drop him now might be a little premature since perhaps he has yet to settle to life in the Premier League. This is largely credited to his small physique. Though it has to be said that the signs are there. And United's Gameweek 4 is at Old Trafford and there's every chance he would score or at least make a couple of assists.

Thus, to cut the story short and quite frankly, because I have even bore myself - I have to sacrifice the excellent Cashley Cole and Demba Ba :( in order to make room for Kagawa to stay and for Hazard to play. And the fringe player I brought in of whom, is as sure as the stars in the sky, isn't gonna play; Sammy Amoebi. (sila rujuk Rajah 1)

But that's beside the point, managers bring in lesser players they knew aren't gonna play a single game for them all the time due to the tight budget constraint. The trick is to find a fringe player who might've caused a sudden impact, for instance, last season - Bossingwa.

OK. Stay tuned - because I know I won't.

Fantasy Fantasized

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My Gameweek 4 Fantasy pipe dream. I'll just put it on hold for a while (the only worry is that price will go up again) for I tend to rush too many things that when I look back.. Well, that's another matter for another day.

Pieces.

Goodbye & Thanks For The Memories

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Goodbye Berba. Thanks for the memories. A classy guy to the finish. Most of all, thank you for your hatrick in the obliteration of Liverstool. A memory I'll always cherish and that outside-of-this-world bicycle kick. Yeah that one. Leave them dumbfounded for more than a while.

OK not feeling so sober-minded right now. Laters.

To-Do: Movies

1. Jay Baruchel's

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2. Million Dollar Baby

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3. Almost Famous

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4. Pixar Movies

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5. The Pirates! Band of Misfits

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Tips for A Better Life
Nota Kaki: Never gets old..

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for 7 hours.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2011 (erm, how about 2010 ? :P)
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink plenty of water.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
18. Smile and laugh more.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
28. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
29. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
31. The best is yet to come.
32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
33. Do the right thing!
34. Call your family often.
35. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
36. Each day give something good to others.
37. Don't over do. Keep your limits

OK those obviously aren't mine and absolutely is a repost. And rather more note-to-self than anything. But if it might help you in your journeys even just a little.. No, don't thank me, but if you insist here's my Maybank account no. 1623 xxxx xxxx

I Remember The Mockery

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RvP spent all but 20 minutes on his debut at Everton in a Red shirt. This was what the ingenious Arsenal fans have had to say. Not match fit. Barely formed an understanding with his new peers. These were the mockeries laid for both United and Persie.

Yep, United did lose the match, make no mistake, its painful to watch, what more with the struggle me and Apis have had to endure just to watch the match as it was Kuala Kangsar on the eve of Eidulfitri at 2.30 o'clock in the morning, there was no mapley whatsoever to help the situation.

But here we are 2 matches-old into the season, Arsenal remains unbeatable and on the contrary, United had already lost once. How in the name of logic has United got more points than the mighty Invincibles ? I am yet left to ponder on the 8th wonder. I told you I will keep score and I will remember all the insults. Simply so that I could rub them on your face when the winds blow south of my ways.

I Have No Idea.

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Lately, I have been obsessing with pixel edituore and caption-fantasticism. And kiddies, those aren't actual words, so don't go use those in exam papers and expect to score some brownie points with your teacher. Because if you're unlucky, forget brownie it might be blue black all over your face.

Remember, teachers (and mothers, for that matter) are always right - EVEN when they're wrong. And that's just a fact you will have to come to term with in life. (gimme a silent nod if you found yourself smiling at this)

And till some time I feel like blabbering craps. Laters. Don't forget to change your undies.

:)

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More on deluded Arsenal fans later. For now lets roll on to the good times.

"This Is Our Year! ™"

With all those talks. All those craps you spew. Liverstool still aint shit. The most loudmouthed residents of foulmouthsville. This is our year. And yet again This is our year the next season. And you still ain fucken shit.

MFA

Signing off for the night from the number one Malaysian state, car registration number wise.

On A Night Like This...

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The Drafts - 31st Dec 2007

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I've wanted to revisit this project for quite some times now. Project Drafts. "The ones posts that I either dare not publish or I somehow lose the appetite to publish". "Great source of inspiration".

Like most people who are fascinated by time-lapse video shots. I too am fascinated by progression, via time. Mine is executed albeit a bit more linearly than most of your likings. But a progression nonetheless. Although the Blog is more than enough time-lapse, the drafts are more or less the behind the curtains and/or the edited scenes of which, the director deem unfit for the larger audience. Although, it should be mentioned that these edited scenes, these spur of the moments, are probably his greatest masterpiece. An innocence he lost while trying to supplicate and please the masses. The type of brutal honesty and flare he lost while trying to be politically correct.

Some people call it growing up.

The Capital I, And I Am - Awesome.

Funniest thing when people talk about changes and they start off by suggesting that we do NOTHING. Don't bother frantically pointing fingers when people call you an Idiot with a capital I, because that is still mildly putting it.

Who Needs I-Pod When I've Got The Bat Pod!

I watched Batman again. With hopes that I will make it earlier this time. Only to find that I was even later than the last time. Pffffttttt. Only now it so appears to me that due to the longer than normal timeline of the movie, the usual Oh-Its-Not-Gonna-Be-For-Another-Fifteen-Minutes-Due-To-Crappy-Commercials reasoning just doesn't apply. Boy boy boy.

This time around I watched still in awe of the Bat Bike (Bat Pod, according to Hadi) and still madly in love with Selina Kyle. And I came back with some quotes as well. Bwoi, I cannot wait till the Blu-Ray version comes out. Be it, if its gonna be a 40-Gig something of a file. Worth every bytes of the ever-expanding belly of my HDD.

"I started off doing what I had to. Once you’ve done what you had to they’ll never let you do what you want to.." - Selina Kyle

"You think darkness is your ally. But you merely adopted the dark. I was born in it." - Bane

Edit: I am so gonna get me one of those sexy Bat Pod toys!

KK - Part One (Kundasang)

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Too lazy to type shits. Jet lag kot. Laters.

And oh nak belagak sikit :P

..that little white cabin was ours. Cantikkan ? ;)

Batman, Anne & The Bike

Batman was just simply, plainly breathtaking. I stood there awestruck for the most part of the movie. The awestruck that I hadn't have ever since the first franchise of the Transformers went out. The 'O' shape signifying the 'OMG AWESOME' didn't leave my mouth for a long time.

Firstly, Bane the villain. Terrifying from the get go, with a voice that sounded a tad mechanical (perhaps due to the AWEfrigginSOME mask on his face) which honestly, I think adds to the eeriness, a voice which was loud, means business and wouldn't bat an eyelash blowing up the entire earth's 6 billion population - just to make a point. And sprinkle on top of that - THE MASK. The friggin mask. Awesome. Awesome some some some. A merciless villain who would say something like "Search him, and then I'm gonna kill you.." like its the most normal thing under the sun. Then he said "Go!" and passes some sort of tracking device to the bewildered minion, who was like "Where ?" - then shot him while he was still holding the device, thus the guise of him being the domain for the tracking device. OMG. Christoper Nolan was just plain genius.

Enter Selina Kyle, the Cat Woman cast by dearly beloved, Anne Hathaway. Hathaway just hath a way with me prior to Batman. The impact she left of me in Love & Another Drugs had me telling people around "Mata masuk habuk.." a couple of times. Then, another one was One Day. But Batman was, I think quite new, even for her. A whole new territory. But she was one sexy sexy Cat Woman. Guile mixed with dry wit and a penchant for cunning. Batman had it from her a couple of times. Yes, not even THE Batman was spared from the tricks she played. First she stole an inherited diamond necklace from Batman's safe, then when he thought he'd get even with her. He got his car stolen the very same night. "Sir, your wife said *inaudible*.." and he was like "MY WIFE ?" LOL. Wargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh. Then with innocent face, she told him "Mr. Bruce, I'm so sorry they make you broke.." to a small retort from the Batman "I doubt that." EPIC.

Then the Bat Bike. The Bat Bike. My recent obsession with bikes doesn't help either. I had to pick up my awestricken jaws from the floor a couple of times due to how awesome that thing was. The artfully beautiful revving sound of the bike, the ridiculously aerodynamic seating. Those impossibly thick tyres. And what the hell do you need a blasting cannon attached on the side of your bike for, which weirdly, ironically, is why the Bat Bike is so so sexy. The way it took a swerve when the GCPD thought Batman was cornered, just for it to unleash the most spectacular, yet impossible L-turn in front of the admiring dumbstruck police forces. Man oh man, I am in effin love. And put on top of the ride, the cunning Selina Kyle. Sexy doesn't even begin to describe it.

Batman ? Well whoever needs introduction to Christian Bale's Batman should be shot a couple of times behind the head.

Just to note, my friend asked me in the theater "Where's the Joker.." and I skipped the part of trying to explain to her what with the loud noise and all. But the question does make me think later, how many franchise there is for Nolan's Batman. Further searches proved me an ignorant buff- whatever, there are currently three franchises of Nolan's Batman and I have only watched 2 of them. Batman Begins commences download as we speak.

Laters.

p/s: Anne Hathaway ♥

Avatar Quotes

"Avatar The Last Airblender.." (Wait, what ?)

- Anna Mariati, with the most confident of face.

Me, face-palming trying to hold the bursting laughter.

Just Gotta Have These!

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Deep fried Mars bars. My oh my. I juz gotsa has dis!

*drools*

:)

Well another Smiley-titled post. Dunno what's happening to me lately. Well Malas is cliche. So there..

..of Colorado Mass Shooting & Ramadhan.

A culture of Shock & Awe and Carpet Bombing breed these cowardly generation of US teens. Mass shooting after another mass shooting. Sadly, and sickeningly, one of the slain victim, a Sportsblogger Jessica Ghawi had just narrowly escaped another mass shooting just six weeks earlier. Just what the hell is wrong with these teens ?

In times like this, though unfair to the memories of the fallen ones, its hard not to be prejudice, judgemental and cynical. I mean the US is too busy minding others' business, terrorist here, terrorist there, while you cultivate Terrorism in your own backyard.

And this time around it gets scarier as it hits quite close to home too, as one of my nephew is currently pursuing his studies in the University of Colorado. Tah la, the US just does not walk away with these classic cases of Pot calling kettle black.

Obummer should really focus in strengthening his country and forget about meddling in what happens behind others' closed doors.

In the meantime, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my Muslim brethren and sisters. Let us all take this chance The Almighty has granted us with. To thank Allah for the chance to meet another of His blessed Ramadhan and MOST of all to achieve the Blessings, Forgiveness and ultimately Lailatul Qadr - the three phases of Ramadhan. InsyaAllah.

Paris :)

Thanks.. :)

For the smile on my face.

Hi, Saya Fakhrol :]

"There's no point to stop being a dick just to become a better asshole.."

- Myself, Aug 4 2010

(Yes. Yes. Narcissism. Sheesh, please stop whispering so close to my ears Gaddammit!)

Yuck Foo!

I have nothing against you. I just hate everything that you stand for. Yuck Foo! (thats French's word for, I love you too. No, I'm not lying. I promise.)

And yes, I hate you with a passion.

3 Doors Down - Here By Me



I hope youre doing fine out there without me
Cause Im not doing so good without you
The things I thought youd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I cant take another day without you
Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
Ive been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I cant always find the words to say
But everything Ive ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
And all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When youre not here

Sorry I cant always find the words to say
Everything Ive ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
And all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

And everything I have in this world
And all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

Goon

"Why don't you give me your number and I promise that I'll never call you.."

- Doug Glatt

Ride To Write

I took a look at all the drafts. The ones posts that I either dare not publish or I somehow lose the appetite to publish. For I am one hell of an impulsive writer, or doer, for that matter. I rarely write with my head, I ride my emotions to write. Thus, when the mood swings to arctic cold, I would just drop the pen, literally speaking, and poof.

But when I take a look back, the draft posts, the ones that I write not trying to be pretty or decent, are the source of a great great inspiration. Some of the stuffs I wrote when I was pissed or madly in love are just.. Yes somebody pass me the Bakul already. I'll get in and pick it up myself. And go and try to figure this Malay idiom in play. Or else, feel free to - Oh well..

I am a free spirit trapped in the rigidity of trying to be pretty. Perhaps, the need to feel accepted. Was I attention-deficient growing up ? Mak said I was.

This is some very random shit. From some very random thoughts.

Tipe X – Kamu N’gak Sendirian



Bila ku tak disini
Tetaplah kau bernyanyi
Dan bila ku tlah pergi
Kenanglah yang terjadi

Pastikan padaku bahwa kamu
Kan baik-baik saja
Karna disetiap mimpiku
Pasti slalu ada kamu

Dengarkan dan rasakan
Lagu yang kuciptakan untukmu
Walau mungkin terdengar gak merdu
Tapi hanya untukmu

Kita pernah bersama disini
Lalui hari penuh warna warni
Meski tak seindah pelangi
Tapi kita pernah bermimpi

Percayalah padaku
Meski digelap malam
Kamu ngga sendirian
Dan semua bintang yang kutinggalkan
Temani kau sampai akhir malam

Dengarkan dan rasakan
Lagu yang kuciptakan untukmu
Walau mungkin terdengar gak merdu
Tapi hanya untukmu

Kita pernah bersama disini
Lalui hari penuh warna warni
Meski tak seindah pelangi
Tapi kita pernah bermimpi

Percayalah padaku
Meski digelap malam
Kamu ngga sendirian
Dan semua bintang yang kutinggalkan
Temani kau sampai akhir malam

Mungkin ini hanya sementara
Mungkin juga untuk selamanya
Tapi nanti jika kukembali
Kau harus ada disini

Percayalah padaku
Meski digelap malam
Kamu ngga sendirian
Dan semua bintang yang kutinggalkan
Temani kau sampai akhir malam

Percayalah padaku
Meski digelap malam
Kamu ngga sendirian
Dan semua bintang yang kutinggalkan
Temani kau sampai akhir malam

Na na na na
Na na na na

For The Hardest Thing Is Not To Learn, But To Unlearn.

Met the guys from the old office lunch tadi. Smiles.

Met Kak Ida. I think I was myself again for I dunno how long. A part of me I left at the AMC when we were forced to move. I didn't realize it, I was like THIS (picture me doing the backward 'C') talkative. Am I that lonely in HQ ? I've read somewhere that one tends to be talkative when one's lonely. Or in a lonely place. Or is feeling lonely. Or something to do with solitude.

I wish the Me of today could tell the Me of yesterday that everything is gonna be OK. That everything is gonna be alright. That everything will be fine.

Then I wish the Future Me would whisper that "This too shall pass.." or "You'll get through this.." - A smile on my face as I type this. Yes, this too shall pass. I've already known the secret. Problem with me, is that I know everything. Yet I know nothing.

"I could not become anything, neither bad nor good, neither a scoundrel nor an honest man, neither a hero nor an insect, and now I'm eking my days in my corner, taunting myself with the bitter and entirely useless consolation that an intelligent man cannot seriously become anything; that only a fool can become something." - Fyodor Dostoevsky

Out of place. Perhaps. But that was what transpired in my mind as I type the paragraph preceding the quote by Mr. Dostoevsky.

I was happy to see them. Loved the shirt that I managed to 'pow' Kak Ida from. But the pix has failed to reach the masses due to an unseen circumstance thanks to Anna Mawiati. Damnit.

:)

Don't feel like typing shits. But these pictures say, I dunno what they say to you, but they exclaim: "GO! Drop whatever you're fucken doing and GO!" to me.

And for the record this post should be titled; The Bucketlist, Revisited & Updated.

♥

"Ayah hang dulu time muda-muda, pakaikan helmet Mak siap tenung lama-lama lagi. Laa (sekarang) ni, kalau Mak gelak-gelak, dia siap pukui helmet ataih (atas) kepala Mak. Punggg!"

How cute.

Mak, as she grumbles her way on top of my FZ complaining that Ayah has yet to lower down the passenger's foot rest for her to step on. The combination of the 'stiff' foot rest and the vertically challenged midg- I mean Mak are just too darn adorable.

I love You. And NOTHING will take that away from me.

8 Miles Quotes

"Fuck you. But have a nice day!"

- Lotto

F.ruZi ™

Awesome. Yes I know. That's what happen when pure awesomeness meets his dynamic duo. By the way this post is intended to serve as a reminder that FZ shall require his oil change when the mileage clocks 10,000. How time flies. And how KLIA is quite hell of a distant to go to work to from Puchong.

p/s: For those of you who hasn't noticed the obvious yet. F.ruZi ™ is the combination of Fakhrolruzi and FZ (yes, you're slow, I forgive you :P)

Something Stupid ♥

No matter how far I go
Doesn't matter how smart I'd get

So glad I found You.
You who make me believe that I'm the smartest person alive.
And still someone who I can be insufferably stupid with.

Selamat Hari Jadi Ayah

55 years ago on this day was born a man... Whom words wouldn't describe. For I shall only stain his reputation and passion for Islam at the parting of my lips.

Selamat Hari Jadi. Its weird that I have to summon all my strength just to say those three words when it comes to you. But I know I do, Dad.

We'll Never Die

Have always thought about running this project. So that when another season wraps up I can shove their asses up their mouths. Just so happen to be pushed towards it when United lost the title by the unprecedented Goal-margin ruling. More so losing it in the last day of the campaign, at the hands of our bitter bitter rivals.

And a little bit of that unnecessary New Liverpool ™ comparison, which truth be told, is more than a little hurtful.

Thus from this day henceforth, I shall collect any snide remarks that I happen to stumble upon, hurled against United. Because when United finally does regain the title again. Trust me, I will be there with a smug you have to surgically remove from my face. And we will. Thus, I will.

So enjoy thy title whilst it last. For we will resurge from the abyss of oblivion. We never die.

You Got Me :)

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though I try to hide - I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe - you got me
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
How much do I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Living each day in this life - without you.
Without you.
One look from you I know you understand
This mess we're in you know is just so out of hand.

I hope we always feel this way (I know we will)
And in my heart I know that you will always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough
How much do I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,

Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

I Love You

What use are poetries if I can't convey my feelings in its rawest form. I love You and I don't care how long and what it takes. I love You.

I love you IMC Darling and I pray to God that you are the one. And ONLY.

End of.

Believe It

I can't imagine. Just quite a traffic this Blog is getting for the past few days from a post I scriptured some half a decade ago. A post I entered obliviously, to the traffic that it might generate exactly 5 years and 2 months later.

Simply because of this one keyword - 'oblivious teens making out' - Yes, out of pure curiosity;

I Googled 'teens making out' - Nada.

Hence, I improvise to - 'oblivious teens making out' - There you go. The motherload! lol

You have to be retarded not to laugh at the simple mindedness of these pube-hitting teens. Fapping their way off to anything that moves. I mean, to a certain degree you found yourself embarrassed at yourself for the case of having been there and smiling embarrassingly, alone, when one of your MANY midnight solitary Google searches led you to something that I have, albeit nonchalantly led them to now!

Sorry guys. Better luck next time :P

The Day United Lost The 20th

I have nothing more to say. I wish United would lose just to send a message to Fergie that we are severely short staffed in the midfield dept. But its a different feeling altogether when they fucken' do.

I just ran out of things to say.

-

If I could I would. But I am much too weak. I realized that now.

Haih. Air mata rasa nak berderai-derai sekarang. The song that is currently playing is Shania Twain's - You've Got A Way With Me. How, in the frailty of this heart do I hold back these tears ?

Dear God..

I know I am a sinner. I know I deserve not your Grace and Love for I am a recurring sinner. I seek for your Shelter when the sun hides itself between the clouds and I puffed my chest out when I saw the rainbow I thought waiting for me afar.

Dear God..

I Know Its Lonely Sometimes But..

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will

When the road you're trudging seems all up hill

When the funds are low and the debts are high

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh

When care is pressing you down a bit

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns

As every one of us sometimes learns

And many a failure turns about

When he might have won had he stuck it out

Don't give up though the pace seems slow

You may succeed with another blow

Success is failure turned inside out

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt

And you never can tell how close you are

It may be near when it seems so far

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit

It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

- Anonymous

April..

April 2012 marks one of the most melancholic times I've felt in years. A personal battle that she and I have had to face for quite some times now.

And as if that isn't gut wrenching enough, I have to part ways with persons I cared about. Colleagues-turn-Kakak, who have been with me through my gelak-crazy-happy days and through some of my darkest moments. Sisters I never have.

Kak Ida.. I ran out of words to say. Where do I start. A loyal listener to an ever-whining Me. One who would never shy away to put me in my place if I were to run out of line. The permanent victim for my who-shall-I-pick-on-today routines. A friend more than she is a colleague. And MOST importantly a sister. A sister I never have.

God knows how painful this parting is. I might be overreacting with this for people say this isn't a final parting - one but a mere geographical switch more than anything. And that's where they are wrong. Geographical change brings about different weathers, different we-

OK. That's it. Why did I even bother.

With My Shoes Buckled & The Train's Leaving

my shoe's buckled
the train's leaving
behind's all my struggle
undo the thread I was weaving

rainbows ahead rainy days at the rear view
fluffy clouds i mold a future askew

_________________________

......... :)

♥in' It.

Liverstool becoming a joke of a club and Manchester United hitting top gear at the crucial minutes of the season. How am I not loving it ?

Fuck you Liverstool.

Made My Day :D

The forums, the comments section will be a little bit sunyi what with all those stupid Scousers running scared with their tails in between their legs. I thought I'd cross my lips and delay the inevitable payloads tomorrow. But but but but but Muargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh karg. These lots are so fucken' bising when United lost - YES you read it right. When United lost NOT when they won. MAcAulay Culkin will probably grew a beard in the first two premise of Home Alone waiting for Liverstool to win something - let alone to win something of note. Pfftt.

Well, United might just be themselves tomorrow and lose the game. But fuck it lets live for today. Yes today, the day Liverstool lose and COMICALLY. Reina was superb. Suar Ratface was awesome - flying around like he's made of feathers.

Ben Arfa was a revelation. Come on now Swansea & Spurs!

Apa Pun Yang Terjadi



Bondan Prakosa:

Ketika mimpimu yg begitu indah,
tak pernah terwujud..ya sudahlah
Saat kau berlari mengejar anganmu,
dan tak pernah sampai..ya sudahlah (hhmm)

Apapun yg terjadi, ku kan slalu ada untukmu
Janganlah kau bersedih..coz everything’s gonna be OKAY

Santoz:
yo..Satu dari sekian kemungkinan
kau jatuh tanpa ada harapan
saat itu raga kupersembahkan
bersama jiwa, cita,cinta dan harapan

Lezz:
Kita sambung satu persatu sebab akibat
tapi tenanglah mata hati kita kan lihat
menuntun ke arah mata angin bahagia
kau dan aku tahu,jalan selalu ada

titz:
juga ku tahu lagi problema kan terus menerjang
bagai deras ombak yang menabrak karang
namun ku tahu..ku tahu kau mampu tuk tetap tenang
hadapi ini bersamaku hingga ajal datang

Bondan Prakoso:
Sempat kau berharap keramahan cinta,
tak pernah kau dapat..ya sudahlah
yeeah..dengar ku bernyanyi..lalalalalala
heyyeye yaya dedudedadedudedudidam..semua ini belum *****hir

Fade 2 Black:
satukan langkah..langkah yg beriring!
genggam hati, rangkul emosi!

Bondan Prakosa:
Genggamlah hatiku, satukan langkah kita

Fade 2 Black:
Sama rasa, tanpa pamrih
ini cinta..across da sea

Bondan Prakosa:
peluklah diriku..terbanglah bersamaku, melayang jauh.. (come fly with me, baby)

Fade 2 Black:
Ini aku dari ujung rambut menyusur jemari
sosok ini yg menerima kelemahan hati
yea..aku cinta kau..(ini cinta kita)
cukup satu waktu yes.(untuk satu cinta)

satu cinta ini akan tuntun jalanku
rapatkan jiwamu yo tenang disisiku
rebahkan rasamu..untuk yg ditunggu
BAHAGIA..HINGGA UJUNG WAKTU..

Poof *Gelak Tutup Mulut* Poof

"Ikrar naga dijunjung... sumpah laut menghantui... datang dari china membawa panglima berhajat... menyemai benih taat setia antara 5 bersaudara... tongkang pecah dilanggar garuda... garuda mati disambar naga... bendera bersabit kukuh berdiri... tanda kami'

Apparently there's a Facebook group named by the - Yes, the WHOLE sentence. The whole fucking sentence. Ni musti geng geng Panglima Garang nih.

Panglima Ludah. Wargh karg kargh karg kargh karg kargh karg kargh

All Hail King Hiney - Not!

"I love how King Hiney's making the joke out of himself and making Liverstool a mockery of the PL more and more after each match.

Long live the King. OK, I'll go get my head checked now. I promise."

- Raizzen, ESPN Socccernet

Happy Birthday Mak.

You aren't the best. No. For 'The Best' means, you're expendable. You're simply, Irreplaceable.

Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You



Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game

Some people think
That the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

"The World is but a byproduct"

Just took a stroll with my FZ just now. Damn, I've missed you buddy. Again and again. Dear God, please cepatkan keadaan duitku. Sesungguhnya I have made my buddy wait long enough. I miss you buddy. And rest assured soon after I get my hands on those monies I will dress you up with a Knight's armor. Lets go see the world together again.

Just Me & You - The World is but a byproduct.

I'll Reserve My Comment For Later, Unless You're, Oh A Liverstool Fan.

I'm so gatal to have blast or 2 at you Chelsea fans. Back then I thought the songs were like 'AVB Is THE Saviour!' and 'The New Mourinho'. Now the songs are like 'Close The Door When You Leave' and 'Pack Up & Leave'. Kelakar you Chelsea fans. There's no Maggi Mee in football. If you want instant results, buy the whole team. No, not like Manchester Shitty. I'm talking Barcelona, bitch.

But even that, wouldn't guarantee you success because God forbids, Barca players might fall down like swatted flies playing with the likes of Sdoke Ciddy.

But I shall reserve my comment up until United has brush off Harry Redknapp's Spurs.

Btw, thanx IMC for the most wonderful of gift I could ask for a birthday. But more on that later. ;)

For now lets enjoy the fact that Chelski is a team of Has-Been and Liverstool is just a bunch loud thugs who produce loud thuds to announce their arrivals. Only for people to still ignore them. Face it, you're his story. I mean history. You brag about shits you haven't been competing for for a long long long time.

Wargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh kargh kargh kargh kargh kagrh

28 Years Later.

Damn those numbers. Keep reminding me that I am getting younger - NOT! OK malas nak type. Laters. Happy Birthday to Me. Yes bow down to the overflowing Awesomeness!

Inspirational.

"I'd settle for a busy tone, at least by that I know that you're OK.."

I Love You.

"Come listen to my truest thoughts, my truest feelings.."
Beyond years of hiding these emotions I'm concealing

We were 17 when you saw a new kid in the school without a friend
In between clatters, you asked "What does this word meant ?"

Times may have changed us into a grown woman & man
But I'm still pretty much the boy who felt in love with U then

Sure he may be irrational & mean, no apologies, that's just who Fakhrol is
But if a lifetime isn't too long, to love U to my last seconds is what I promise!

& if loving U is a mistake Life doesn't want me to forget
Then let me spend it trading fists with Regrets!

In U my heart's found a home, urm, this is perilous..
Because U hold the ONLY key to my happiness!

Just remember no matter how dark the night gets, how heartless he may be
I hope she won't forget in my heart is where Thee will always be.

In solitary, I finally figure out the equation of US - Its U plus I
Nurul's the Straw to my Berry, Haqmar's the Apple of my Eye

I can't move your mountains, but let me give you the strength to carry
6 billion people on the face of earth.. You're the only I wanna marry.

Happy Birthday RedNev!


"If you cut me up, I'll still bleed Red.."

Lets Go To War

I want this flame to blanket itself around me
For I don't see the necessity
To walk myself out of this misery

You've invoked this flare within, well I guess that's just the way you are
I hope you came prepared with a coffin, lets go to war.
Lets dance holmes, I wouldn't mind hitting dusk to befriend the dawn
I won't back down till the last dust from your charred being have I step upon

Fuck you.

The Boss!

Evra's stature has just been blown up by a thousand fold in my eyes. We love you, El Capitane!

Liverstool : The Case of Severe Delusions.

I hate Liverstool and I hate them with all my guts. And it feels good to finally shut their traps up with a bloody proper way. By beating the hell out of them in broad daylight. Now you wouldn't be so obnoxiously loud about some historical Championships statistics nobody fucken' cares about. Lets face it, you won your last major title in the 90's and now you're stuck in a time warp where STILL PICTURES are actually making more sense than a MOTION VIDEO. You bloody dumbfucks. How bloody fucken' stupid can you fucken' be ?

OK. I should stop now. I'm having a writer's block.

And screw you. Bloody dumbfucken' morons.

The Miss U Nursery Rhyme Post =)

Good friends are forever
Best Friends are rarer
In U am dealt with the best hand
Thus, I love you my Best Friend.

Dunno what's this feeling
Oh! U are the one am missing!
She belongs to me & I, hers.
Thus WE function in the presence of US.

I miss U.

Nota Kaki: United beat the shitload out of the Scouse. Sorry just gotta take a swipe. Just.

De Heya!

Fantastic save by the young Spaniard.

The Go-Figure Post.

I don't like you. And you don't give me a reason to.