This Is How I Miss You

There is a place deep in the valleys

Hid by the mountains, white sheets of memories 

A place guarded by heart, hidden from sight hardened by the stones of melancholy. Should one wander far enough, stood once was a statue of You & Me.

You were a beautiful beautiful part of my life.

Thank you for being in it. No matter how brief it was.

You fantastic thing.

And Heart Is...

If ever we shall meet again in a universe parallel
Would you still call me Darlink, can I still call you Angel ?

Would you still love me if the circumstance we meet was different ?
Would you take my hand and ride off to a sunset in that rusty wagon ?

Would you laugh at my silly jokes or have you always knew ?
Dumb as I may joked I have NEVER when I said that I love you

If we were strangers brushing each other's shoulders on a train
I wonder if you would catch me staring from the opposite lane

I have said Hello to you so many times that I lost count
Though most of it happened in my mind & just outside of a frown

Hence if a day comes memory fails me & my mind shredded to pieces
I'll find my way back because home is where the heart is; 

And heart is wherever she is.

Narcisus Snobbe

My name is Narcis, my middle name Snobbish
I'm prickly I'm scheming and I'm also a little selfish

You don't have to be subtle about your dislike for me, I ain't slow
Thats up to you but if I don't like you you sure as hell would know

lol OK I lied if I don't like you you won't see coming until the very end
You'll only know it when you check the count of your Facebook friends

If I have 2 bullets and left in a room with a killer a rapist and you
No brainer! I would shoot you twice before you could count to two

To know me makes you unfortunate but to mess with me was a crime
Sit there & repent while you collapse your lung one breath at a time

p/s: What a name would Narcicus Snobbe would have made! lol

My Ship Couldn't Dock

There's a wall in front of me
But you know me. I'm fucking lazy.

Looking for the will to climb and I haven't found it
So instead I look for ways to go around it.

A wall made of tall so long a line, the end I couldn't fine.
So left I am in contemplation if this is all in my mind ?

Brilliance is the destination I sailed to but my ship couldn't dock
Is this what they meant when they mentioned a writer's block ?

Cipher 10 Menit (Tipu!)

Gambar hiasan

Torrents of miseries

In these oceans of memories

Ashes of what once was

Scattered along one's cause

Warriors of fate

Braving horrors of state

Twice I peeked halting, not once did I peep stopping 

I stood up when everything else keeps dropping

Forgive me for thinking that I & You should spell forever

I forgot you don't always get four putting two & two together

p/s: See ? I still got it! 

I have no fucking sympathy for old suits reeking of money
Who would like to speak of injustice while defining tyranny

You stood by and watch idly at the state of this country's infamy
And still you have the gall to ask for shoulders of empathy ?

Fuck you! For everything that you've received - you once gave
Water your cemetery flowers ? No you decrepit fuck, I spit on your grave!

Not sorry nor am I jubilant - merely a spectator with a bowl full of popcorn
Turn the volume up, lower your voice down because the show's full on.

The Flipside

Verse 1: The current State

I laugh in the company of numbers
I cry in the rain in the dark, this numbness

I picked this road, I made the choice
I wrote this song, am gonna give it a voice

Prodigies are birthed outside the vicinity of sane
Truly beautiful rhythms are forged only with pain

Verse 2: The alter Ego

Things will look up again
For even heroes were at one point a villain.

Hence live.
Not leave.

For..

Prodigies are birthed outside the realm of sane
& truly beautiful rhythms are forged only with pain

Those Who Live By The Pen

Those who live by the pen die under the pain of cliches
Such's the price us Poets traded our souls to pay

In an attempt so futile to please, we instead irate
Longed to be understood yet we mislead so deliberate

In the lights so gay openly we brood
Haven't I said that we live to be misunderstood ?

Sorrows

In this pain I writhe
With this wrath I breath

I did not found solitude
It found me. Vulnerable & nude.

Pissed at visibly everything
And angry at apparently nothing.

Storm passes, worse is what follows
Flood ceases, subplot to what's tomorrow

Go away.

Let me drown in my sorrows.

Lead Me Astray

Numbers are overrated. For I found more company in solitude.

Leave me alone.

At the bottom of these feelings.

Entrapped within the abyss of this unfathomable altitude.

Hence engulfed within Wrath of this magnitude.

Happy Birthday Sayang!

Remember in those dreams we share
In our darkest hours, we swear..

That we shall never forget the Where
Just because the From is so hard to bear

Nobody promised thee that it'll be easy
But thou smile with thy pain so evidently

In time and place where weakness is understandable;
How'd you draw such strength is nothing short of incredible =)

You are neither my joy, my pain nor my everything. Make no mistake
You're simply the joy of my pain & simply the every breath that I take

I love you not because of your sweet starts
But those fights to the bitter end is how you beat the hearts.

There I go again with this mouth-diarrhea
When all I wanted to say was a simple Happiest Birthday to ya!

Another 2.30 AM Post

Source: us.fotolog.com via Mohd Fakhrolruzi on Pinterest

Its half past two.
& the only thing certain is my thoughts of you.

You left me thrilled even when you're not around
You make me smile knowing just what might come abound

Your smiles, your scent and the endless possibility of you.
We laugh, we cry and most of all we thrive in the senility of us two!

We despise authorities, we break the rules
Total disregard for the status quo
The two of us & the world's but a byproduct 
We're the dynamic duo!

So in case you're wondering
What the hell I am doing still up at half past-two 
Its your fault
I'm missing my Better Half of this crew :)

2.30 A.M

"You're the last thought in my head at night
And the first one when the sun in sight.."

You're my loveliest Hello and my hardest goodbye
Lets go take a ride. Ask me where, don't ask me why!

But first let us sleep, for in the sleep we dream :P
Narrow streets of Paris where we sip our Coffee-N-A-cream!

Funny all those lines I said when all I wanted to say to you
Was how much I miss you, this half past two. :P

Bigger Things

There are things bigger than You & Me
I let You go.. Even when I heart Thee

I Love You.

"Come listen to my truest thoughts, my truest feelings.."
Beyond years of hiding these emotions I'm concealing

We were 17 when you saw a new kid in the school without a friend
In between clatters, you asked "What does this word meant ?"

Times may have changed us into a grown woman & man
But I'm still pretty much the boy who felt in love with U then

Sure he may be irrational & mean, no apologies, that's just who Fakhrol is
But if a lifetime isn't too long, to love U to my last seconds is what I promise!

& if loving U is a mistake Life doesn't want me to forget
Then let me spend it trading fists with Regrets!

In U my heart's found a home, urm, this is perilous..
Because U hold the ONLY key to my happiness!

Just remember no matter how dark the night gets, how heartless he may be
I hope she won't forget in my heart is where Thee will always be.

In solitary, I finally figure out the equation of US - Its U plus I
Nurul's the Straw to my Berry, Haqmar's the Apple of my Eye

I can't move your mountains, but let me give you the strength to carry
6 billion people on the face of earth.. You're the only I wanna marry.

Lets Go To War

I want this flame to blanket itself around me
For I don't see the necessity
To walk myself out of this misery

You've invoked this flare within, well I guess that's just the way you are
I hope you came prepared with a coffin, lets go to war.
Lets dance holmes, I wouldn't mind hitting dusk to befriend the dawn
I won't back down till the last dust from your charred being have I step upon

Fuck you.

The Miss U Nursery Rhyme Post =)

Good friends are forever
Best Friends are rarer
In U am dealt with the best hand
Thus, I love you my Best Friend.

Dunno what's this feeling
Oh! U are the one am missing!
She belongs to me & I, hers.
Thus WE function in the presence of US.

I miss U.

Nota Kaki: United beat the shitload out of the Scouse. Sorry just gotta take a swipe. Just.

Crime of Bliss.

Gone are the days where Solitary and Me
Were part of a pact, if you would, a fraternity.

Fingers have to be pointed, someone HAS to be the instigator!
Where did it all go wrong ? I can only think of one perpetrator.

For you fit into all the description of Bliss
The very epitome of loneliness' anti-thesis.

And for that, I love You. Just the way are.
And yes, I AM actually talking about you, N___________r.

By No Means A Misdemeanor

I'm all out of expression, pfft, the audacity! Not to mention the Irony..
Coz if 'I love u' should be a crime - I'd happily commit a felony!

Flap ur wings, take flight & fly high I hope u'll grow from strength to strength
Leave d' naysayers picking their jaws, shed ur skin - time to go out with a bang!

I know too often than not I don't talk straight, but this, straight from the heart
Its ur smile I wanna see when the sun's bright & its ur tears I'm gonna wipe when times're hard

"According to the laws of physics, a bee can't fly, the weight of the bee, the surface area of it's wings and the power available from it's flight muscles, put them all into an equation, it comes up short and the bee shouldn't be able to fly.."

Take Off, Take Flight. Selamat Bekerja.

Your Intended.
Nota Kaki: Liyana Fizi is just damn. Inspiring. The urge to light write again. Thanx for the inspiration.

You know you found your Intended
When you struggle to craft mere words

You know you found your Intended
When you struggle to craft just those 3 words

You know you found your Intended
When its so hard to say "I've just farted.."