From The Desk of The Draft: 31st Aug 2012

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“If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.” 

-Claudia Ghandi

Bigger Things

There are things bigger than You & Me
I let You go.. Even when I heart Thee

Assfield Asswipes

From United to Liverstool. There's no love lost between these two. And though not much for my liking, the way we won last Sunday. I'd take any points off the Scouse bastards at Anfield any fucken' day. Fuck it if we had to win so ugly that we have to crawl our ways into a goal. And its always a pleasure beating you fucken' scums at your own ground, you ugly schmucks.

p/s: And oh by the way, for all your braggadocios and a sense of entitlement, how does relegation zone's oblivion treating you ? I hope its not too sunny for you hideous goblins down there.

Wargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh  kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh kargh.

Eiffel :)

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Adele - Someone Like You (Live at The Royal Albert Hall) 

Its Someone Like You. Yes. But Adele's performance in this is just so... The vexing pain is visible throughout the entire song sung.

"I remember you said sometimes in love it lasts, sometimes it hurts instead.." 

You could literally feel her pain when she said those words. Get your tissues or get an alibi - for I guarantee you. You WILL cry.

And if not, well. Of course I care, right ?

Too Much Time In Your Hands

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What twat of a Gameweek. All my gambles fumbled. And fumbled pretty badly. Remember how I was foaming my mouth on how I wanna incorporate Hazard and retain Kagawa in the same team ? And remember how I was religiously preaching about how the smart guys always hold on to things that they seem to think will violate their intellectual beliefs, if they were to let go of those stuffs ?

I did just that.

I held on to Kagawa in false hope that Hazard will perform BAU (business as usual) and in the process I had to sacrifice the prolific Demba Ba and Ashley Cole.

This is how thing went the down. All the way fuck down.

Cashley Cole > Jenkinson - Cost: 0 | Return: 2 (+2)

Demba Ba > Sammy Amoebi - Cost: 4 | Return: 0 (-4)

McAnuff > Hazard - Cost:4 | Return: 3(-1)

And to top off a wonderful weekend, Ba scored 2 goals (acquiring 9 points in the process and tak masuk bonus lagi) and Cashley managed a clean shit (acquiring 8). That's a total of 17 had I not make those transfer. That's 17 + 5.

A total of 22 points lost due to my 'insightful' transfer policy. Chewah, transfer policy!

But this game is like surfing la bang, sometimes you went out and met a lot of waves unscathed, you go home feeling like champion. And other days you go home what the fuck happened, was I born a loser ?

If you're too twatted-up to make a decision, then all the fucks are on you. On the other hand, what I learn is, what I really really learn, is that throughout the course of the season some Gameweeks are gonna suck so bad you're gonna think there's something wrong with earth's gravity (sorry, just had to do it, the cheesy similes, else I wouldn't feel complete. lol). But if you hold on to a pretty much the same set of players, you're gonna see that these players DO accumulate points. Sure, there will be Gameweek where Ben Arfa scored 2 and streaks of when all Ba did was score 2 (damnit Ba!) but throughout the season, when the points have accumulated, I was tapping my temple last season, why the hell did I let go some of these top top players.

Thus, arriving to the learning curve, OK I forgot what I was gonna say. Happens a lot when you're typing on a whim. But, hold on to these players, Future Me, listen, hold on to them. Quick wins are alrighttttttt and sweettttttttt of course, but if one were to look at it from a bigger picture, you'll see that if you don't transfer around that much (thus costing you 8 points in the process EVERY.FUCKEN.TIME) - these players do score. And quite amazingly - when the dust settles.

So screw you.

Author's Note: Of course, coupled with the fact that Ferguson's rotation system proves just too risky for Fantasy Managers to incorporate United players in their team. RvP was a captain who were drawn upon for the final 20 minutes, how much could he do anyway. Kagawa didn't even play. So there you have it.

WTF

I dunno what the hell did I enter yesterday ? lol. I was actually just testing the 'wishlist' label since I can't find (stupid Blogger!) it - but I was pretty sure I did an entry earlier in regards of something 'wishlist'. Turns out I did. And the joke is on blogger.com since I can't find it. Seriously, please review your Search function. Hell yeah I might be the one who's technologically illiterate here but of course its still your fault - your failure to educate me.

"Its NOT A Gift Its A Miwworrrr!"

This is just too darn darn darn adorable. If I had a daughter I imagine her to be something (err.. something ?) like this.

The 2-year old toddler Leah, had apparently broken a pact she had with her father about not revealing the mirror gift they had come up with together. The idea was she's gonna keep the "miwworr" a secret from Mom until Mothers' Day arrives. Leah, being a child she is had apparently been anxious to tell Mommy. So she came up with a strategy of her own, killing two birds with one stone;

she was going to tell Mom about the miwworr and hide it back. How smart. Why haven't I thought of that ?!

Excerpts from the most adorable Mommy-Daughter conversation (some that I could catch due to Leah's perfect perfect pronunciation)

Mom: You're gonna show me what ?
Leah: *adorable inaudible*

Mom: *chuckles*
Leah: Here it issss! See ?

Mom: What's that ?
Leah: Its a present miwworr!

Mom: From whatttt ?
Leah: From you! (LOL)

Mom: Who made it ?
Leah: I did. I made this all FOR YOU!

Mom: Leahhhh, thank you! Is it for my Mothers' Day gift ?

Leah: No, its not a gift its a MIWWORRR (LOL I laughed so hard during this part)

This made a bit teary. Who the hell cuts onions during the night ? Sheesh!

Lovely lovely conversation between the girls. I'm sure they're both gonna cherish this moment they shared together as they grew older.

Should really capture loads and loads of photos and videos of my little ones for this kind of moment of brilliance :)

:)

These days I don't even know the song that I have in my 2000 strong playlist, well more actually, but God, I download album after albums but that does not mean I'm gonna listen to the whole lot of them.

So, I stumble upon this song - very easygoing melody, delightfully light music. Makes one smiles, albeit a melancholic one. Truth be told, I don't even know what its saying. And upon Googling, I found out that's its one of those K-Drama OST. So must be either Yan's or these kids' punya kerja. Heck, its enjoyable nonetheless :)

Paris

I'm just too lazy to type, starving like I dunno. But this author capture my thoughts quite exactly..

"Ko rasa kalau kita jual Eifel Tower ni dapat berapa ?"

Posing "Kami-Sudah-Berjaya-Anda-Bila-Lagi" dengan Tok. How I wish this was true:(

This was before the Gangnam Style was even invented 

Just because I look serious - Doesn't mean I'm not! 

Pose standard dikala melancong. Tak buat nyesal. 

Note: Above are some of the pictures of my recent business travel to Paris. I hope you enjoy them as much as I have.

"Paris is a phenomenal city and with all its rich historical past and great architectural monuments it attracts more and more tourists from all around the world. But first of all it is considered as the most romantic city of all times! A lot of great and well known writers, poets and artists were inspired by the beauty and sophistication of the Eiffel Tower, Louvre Museum, Notre Dame de Paris, Versailles. Its narrow and amazingly beautiful streets make you want to wander all day around this wonderful place and then stop at some secluded café, taste a dainty dish and have a glass of exquisite French wine and that’s the right way to feel the Paris from the inside. It is impossible not to fall in love with this city from the first sight. It will never make anyone feel indifferent!"

Life Goes On

This song used to make me teary and is still true to this day. Still one of the best lyricist the world has yet to see. Tupac lived his short years to the fullest. Doubt that too many people can achieve what he did living the life which he never get to see 26. That fateful night on Sept 7, 1996.

How many brothers fell victim to the streets
Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'
Be a lie, If I told ya that I never thought of death
My niggas, we the last ones left
But life goes on.....

[Verse One]

As I bail through tha empty halls
Breath stinkin' in my jaws
Ring, ring, ring quiet y'all
Incoming call
Plus this my homie from high school he's getting bye
It's time to bury another brotha nobody cry
Life as a baller alcohol and booty calls
We used to do them as adolescents, do you recall ?
Raised as G's, locked out and blazed the weed
Get on tha roof let's get smoked out and blaze with me
2 in tha morning and we still high assed out
Screaming 'thug till I die' before I passed out
But now that your gone I'm in tha zone
Thinking I don't wanna die all alone'
But now ya gone and all I got left are stinkin' memories
I love them niggas to death I'm drinkin' Hennessy
While tryin' ta make it last I drank a 5th for that ass
When you passed....Cause life goes on

How many brothers fell victim to the streets
Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'
Be a lie, If I told ya that I never thought of death
My niggas, we the last ones left
But life goes on.....

[Verse Two:]

Yeah nigga I got tha word as hell
You blew trial and the judge gave you 25 with an L
Time to prepare to do fed time won't see parole
Imagine life as a convict that's gettin' old
Plus with the drama we're lookin out for your babies mama
Taken risks, while keepin' cheap tricks from gettin on her...
Life in the hood, is all good for nobody
Remember gamin' on dumb hotties at chill parties
Me and you no truer a two
While scheming on hits and gettin tricks
That maybe we can slide into
But now you buried
Rest nigga cause I ain't worried
Eyes blurred sayin' goodbye at the cemetary
Tho' memories fade I got your name tated on my arm
So we both ball till' my dying days
Before I say goodbye
Kato and Mental rest in peace
Thug till I die

How many brothers fell victim to the streets
Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'
Be a lie, If I told ya that I never thought of death
My niggas, we the last ones left
But life goes on.....

[Verse Three:]

Bury me smilin' with G's in my pocket
Have a party at my funeral let every rapper rock it
Let the hoes that I used to know from way before
Kiss me from my head to my toe
Give me a paper and a pen
So I can write about my life of sin
A couple bottles of Gin
In case I don't get in
Tell all my people I'm a Ridah
Nobody cries when we die
We outlaws let me ride
Until I get free I live my life in the fast lane
Got police chasing me
To my niggas from old blocks from old crews
Niggas that guided me through
Back in the old school
Pour out some liquor
Have a toast for the homies see we both gotta die
But you chose to go before me
And brothers miss you while you 're gone
You left your nigga on his own
How long we mourn
Life goes on...

How many brothers fell victim to the streets
Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'
Be a lie, If I told ya that I never thought of death
My niggas, we the last ones left
But life goes on.....

Life goes on homie
Gone on, cause they passed away
Niggas doin' life
Niggas doin' 50 and 60 years and shit
I feel ya nigga, trust me
I feel ya
You know what I mean
Last year
We poured out liquor for ya
This year nigga, life goes on
We're gonna clock now
Get money
Evade bitches
Evade tricks
Give players plenty space
And basically just represent for you baby
Next time you see your niggas
You're gonna be on top nigga
Their gonna be like,
Goddamn, them niggas came up'
That's right baby
Life goes on....
And we up out this bitch
Hey Kato, Mental
Y'all niggas make sure it's poppin' when we get up there
Don't front.

Marah

I am so pissed right now I get dizzy from trying to hold back from lashing out at someone. Therefore, I maybe have to try and write it out. So here I am. Nak meniaga buat cara nak meniaga. If you don't have the courtesy to reply my message at least try and pretend that you're fucking busy asshole :)

Tak sangka tahan marah pun boleh pening. And God, N8 what perfect timing for you to tag along with this fuckage as well. Hmfff hmmffff hmmffff. And in case you're wondering, that's the sound from the contraction and expansion of my nostrils.

Artsy :)

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Kak As actually sprung this idea out of my mind. Call it narcissism, I value my thoughts dearly. Perhaps it was the fact that I could actually pull a few surprises even to myself with what I had to say sometimes (or perhaps that depression actually brings out the best in me ?). Therefore my thoughts, my rhymes and simple poetries I wrote along the way - on top of someone's table, tissues - whatever - I try my best to hold on to them.

Then come my sketches, I value them in equal measures as well, albeit they were a bit more less unfortunate for I don't really have the means to hold to them and perhaps a little undervalued because they're well - Sketches.

So thanks Kak As for this (and for that matter, Pinterest) for the means to hold on to my sketches. And don't get your panties up in a wad yet, these art pieces are worth more than Mona Lisa herself - in Parallel Universe somewhere, of course.

They're not pretty but like the little pieces of my thoughts, I would like to hold on to them not for them and neither for you but for the me of tomorrows. All I'm saying is if you like them - by all means come out and puji the hell out of me. Kalau tak, we can both act like we didn't see anything! :P

Baju Melayu

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The moment I finished shopping dekat Jalan Masjid India, I was determined I would definitely up this entry. So before I forgot..

I was befuddled at the price I was looking at for Baju Melayu in the vicinity of Wisma Yakin. I thought they were gonna be cheaper or at least at par with what Puchong had to offer (in the region of 100 bucks/ pair) - albeit with abundance of choice.

Buoyyyyyyyy was I clueless. Wisma Yakin is definitely a cut-throat place to go to buy your Baju Melayu needs, especially on the Eve of Aidilfitri. I half suspected they bloated the prices during this time. It only make sense, the demand was up by at least a thousand-fold, and nobody's gonna buy Baju Melayu or Baju Kurung every month. So why not squeeze out the entire year's fortune now. Well, that's a theory I should prove later.

The purpose of this entry is that so I won't forget how much expenditure was involved in getting Baju Raya every year. So that I'll have some benchmark of how much should I pay for the upcoming years. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't mind paying a little higher than usual for quality but then again, I hate paying over the odds.

And to the sighing relief of mine, mine's quality as far as comfort goes. Its just the colours that I pick though. I have this slight weakness for dark colours. I picked it out regardless of realizing that how much purple there is on the canvas. I thought what the fuck, the year before was pure purple. This one ada pin-stripes. So what the heck la kan. And balik, I realized that Hafiz and Ayah had 2 identical colours, both of which I totally forgot to put into equation when making that smart-ass decision. But then again, what the heck, aku rasa lawa.

One issue tho (well, aside from the striking similarity of course) - the samping / sampen (somebody please shed me some light about this please) - The samping, I have vowed on my mother's cat's grave that I wouldn't go for that kind of material which I have given up upon a couple years back - due to the impossibility of ironing it. And the price, my sweet God - RM 145. Gila. But the colours, the colours just match my Baju Melayu. And again, I rammed down all vows, promises and silent revenge vouches I've made with myself through the loneliness of the nights years before.

All in all, I was surprised at myself for I have never been one to spend so much on Baju Melayu. To think that a few years before I personally requested Mak to only give me the top half of the Baju Melayu, for I know that the seluar is gonna be wasted. I won't wear it again after the first day of Raya. I know it.

What a difference a few years had made. But then again spending close to 300 bucks for Baju Melayu had never been me and I don't think it probably should. Perhaps, perhaps if I hadn't be so desperate since that was the last weekend before Raya (the disadvantage of having Raya on weekends!) and if not for keluar dengan Zul dengan Hadi at 4.30 pm on a Saturday evening (and Zul has been bugging to get back for bukak puasa dekat rumah. !@#$%^&*) - I maybe wouldn't have spent that much money.

But then again, the colours and the price aside - the quality is justified. Perhaps I might just come back again next year :P

Fantasy Fantasized II

Rajah 1

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OK. Two Fantasy Football entries in a matter of days. Well I'm not officially obsessed, I was already obsessed ever since I can't remember;

(bullshit, you started playing Fantasy Football last season. Well OK fine - last season)

Ehem, pardon the little conversation between me and the little boy inside me a la Van Persie (yes! *fist pump*)

- Yes ever since last season.

Its just that I think it would help to keep track and rationalize why I did what I did and who I had to sacrifice in order for me to bring in other players, those whom I thought would definitely score some high points for me. And the spirits of time blows pretty strongly in one Eden Hazard's way. To miss the boat now would definitely spell a disaster and a lot of temple-hitting incidents comes May.

For instance, like last season, I knew RvP was gonna injure himself at some point into the season. Or rather, I was hoping that he would. I stubbornly held on to my players and and refused to accept the fact the hated Arsenal's forward was scoring points in abundance for Fantasy Managers.

My decision was based entirely on emotion and foolish hopes. And it cost me dearly. While other managers were enjoying RvP's captain points (double whatever the appointed captain for the Gameweek scores) I was left to pick up drizzles here and there due to the constant changes, for I am one "impulsive doer" and to a further extend, an impulsive decision maker. Funny, I constantly tweaked my team here and there and only refused to incorporate RvP. Simply out of my hatred for Arsenal.

That was up until a dude whom I deem (I wish I could've put this in a less awful manner) whom I deem intellectually less fortunate, told me "Hang tukaq ja RvP yada yada yada something something". Then it hits me, I was talking about this for a long long time; that the problem with intelligent guys is that they don't listen to things from a person whom they feel.. isn't smarter than them.

Then it hits me again, that Fantasy Football is a lot like stockbroking in a way that there are times you hold on to your stocks but doubt not, there will come a time that you will have to let go of some no matter how much it violates your intellectual beliefs.

Now a look into the last Gameweek, I didn't have to sacrifice anybody last week since Chelski didn't have any game in this Gameweek, its only logical that I bring in Ben Arfa as a replacement for Lampard. Shawcross for Rafael was an easy choice for that extra edge he brings to United's offense. So that's 4 points deducted.

I know Dong Ji Wu wouldn't be playing for Sunderland and I have had 4 points deducted already due to Ben Arfa's transfer - thus the question of should Ji be substitued since I have that extra dollars from Lampard's sale. The easy route would've been just to leave Ji in the team for even if he didn't play, I wouldn't lose 4 unnecessary points.

It wasn't up until the last minutes that I decided to use that "Baik Menyesal Beli Dari Menyesal Tak Beli" principle that I have always employed when faced against to-buy-or-to-bye predicament. Thus, the purchase of Steven Fletcher of Sunderland. I've admired the dude for his poaching tendency ever since his Wolves' days. But this was to be his first game for Sunderland and I know how much time some players take to settle within the team no matter how talented they are.

His was a risky buy due to the 8 points deduction. If I were to stick with Ji, yes, I wouldn't gain any points but I sure as hell would retain 4, but if I go for Fletcher, at the MOST logical he would conjure up 2 points and I would lose unnecessary 2 due to his transfer. Therefore in order for Fletcher's transfer to make sense he would've have to score at least a goal. And he gave me two! :)

Breakdown of points for my new transfer goes a little something like this;

1. Lampard > Ben Arfa - Cost: 0 | Return: 9 (+9)

2. Shawcross > Rafael - Cost: 4 | Return: 1 (-3)

3. Dong Ji Wu > Fletcher - Cost: 4 | Return: 13 (+13)

Total - Cost: 8 | Profit: 19 (+11)

Not bad.

OK that is some long ass entry.

We are finally arriving to the actual point of this (un)necessarily prolonged entry, for Gameweek 4, in order for me incorporate Hazard, I have to sacrifice a player of his caliber or or two players; one of entry and another, intermediate class players.

The initial plan looked like this, but since RvP's hatrick heroic last night I think to drop him now would be stupid as I have already bought him up and considering how he will be heavily utilized by United in the upcoming fixtures now that Rooney the Shrek has got himself injured. And to buy him back would mean MAJOR tweaking to the team as he's the single player to cost the managers around 13 mil ++ and will potentially be blown more out of proportion as the season winds down.

That would mean the logical choice is to sacrifice Kagawa and another fringe player. Kagawa, to my dismay, hasn't performed up to the standard I expected of him, but to drop him now might be a little premature since perhaps he has yet to settle to life in the Premier League. This is largely credited to his small physique. Though it has to be said that the signs are there. And United's Gameweek 4 is at Old Trafford and there's every chance he would score or at least make a couple of assists.

Thus, to cut the story short and quite frankly, because I have even bore myself - I have to sacrifice the excellent Cashley Cole and Demba Ba :( in order to make room for Kagawa to stay and for Hazard to play. And the fringe player I brought in of whom, is as sure as the stars in the sky, isn't gonna play; Sammy Amoebi. (sila rujuk Rajah 1)

But that's beside the point, managers bring in lesser players they knew aren't gonna play a single game for them all the time due to the tight budget constraint. The trick is to find a fringe player who might've caused a sudden impact, for instance, last season - Bossingwa.

OK. Stay tuned - because I know I won't.

Fantasy Fantasized

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My Gameweek 4 Fantasy pipe dream. I'll just put it on hold for a while (the only worry is that price will go up again) for I tend to rush too many things that when I look back.. Well, that's another matter for another day.

Pieces.